Fear

sometimes i need a break from the worries of the day

i need something to make it all go away 

a need to escape is all i’ve got to say

someone tell me what i’ve done, tell me what i’ve now become

i live in a life of fear & desperation, i live in a life of fear i suppose

there doesn’t seem to be any kind of explanation

someone tell me what I’ve done, someone tell me what went wrong 

when they’ve got you in their crosshairs and they’re counting down from ten

a chilling realization discovering when – 

there was a time before they had you under their chin 

i wonder what went wrong, i wonder what went wrong for me

my heart is in chains and i’m dancing with a ghost

it’s a song of all or nothing & i’m hoping for the most

in my dreams I still find myself holding you close

i wonder what went wrong, i wonder what went wrong 

i live a life of fear & desperation, all i look for is a way to save my soul

but i don’t seem to see any kind of indication 

that that could be a realistic goal

it’s symptom of my sadness to get lost at every turn 

i watch with melancholy madness, i watch it crash and let it burn

i just see myself as waiting in the calm before the storm

i’m just trying to survive, survive until my ship comes along

i drown my sorrows in pent up frustrations

i look for a way to have my story told

i’m in the middle of a swarm of appalling allegations 

but this spy has come in from the cold   

i tend to be a non-monogamous dude 

not crazy about sleep, not crazy about food

those are convictions to which i am glued

sad state in which I’ve now been found, someone tell me what am I to do? 

hunter thompson writes about fear & self loathing, 

it’s like he’s got a window to my soul 

with nothing hide, there could be no thing 

to show me what the purpose is or what i may be willing to hold

out for the kill & climbing the planks, i haven’t got the skill, i’m firing blanks  

i long for her still but it’s a job with no thanks, love is gone, love is gone