existentual experience             

river….

in the twinkling of time, in a stare-down eye to eye,
sailing side by side on a mission doomed from wire to wire on a river….

we all start off with a nice clean slate but ahead the
slopes are slippery when the ice begins to break it hits you right between the
eyes when you dive into a river of fire

it kinda went down like a third
class murder viewed through the cracks of a two-way mirror, in clouds of
complicated psychobabble the criminal preaches to the choir

the dream i used to have when i was young and full of wonder, it rumbles in my head, it’s
a cloud i’m living under, i
can’t help but feel the pounding of this heart once full of hunger 

what it’s saying is it won’t hold on any longer, though it
stings to feel these cold winds biting, the only way down is go down fighting

a chill goes up my spine when i
see the writing on the walls that reads the world could have been ours

i wasn’t given the life i wanted waking up one day to find your house is haunted, imagine
a menagerie of animals with wounded moans and cries, the woes of listening
through walls of din 

could it be another shifting paradigm again? and in the
twinkling of time, in a stare-down eye to eye, sailing side by side on a
mission doomed from wire to wire on a river of fire

while waiting for the long arms of the law to catch us
we’ll venture to wherever this dreamscape stretches, if necessary sail to a
malaria plagued tropical isle 

the one thing you learn when you are young and hungry, to
scrap and claw while searching every corner of this country to the highest
driest desert for one more glimpse of that smile

the dream i used to have when i was young and full of wonder still rumbles in my head,
kind of echoing like thunder. i can’t help but feel
the pounding of this heart once full of hunger

(It’s as if it all were written in the stars…) though it
stings to feel these cold winds biting (by higher powers…) the only way down is
go down fighting (…..and higher laws)

eat or be eaten, lay it on the line, chills go up my spine
when i read the writing on the walls – the world
could have been ours, au revoir, au revoir

rebel without a damn

this is what i am, this is what i do, this is my plan, this is my cue, this is why my aim
is true, my aim is high, this is all i ever want to
do, to live forever, live forever, like a rebel without a clue

i may be blind, may be confused, but
this is all i ever wanted to do, i
can’t say whether i should know better, i just know what i am, i want live forever like a rebel without a damn

i live by the cards i
drew, i follow the sky, my aim is true, flying blind
with no balloon, deep in the eye of the monsoon

don’t know where i have gone,
don’t know where i began, don’t know where i belong or where the plane may land, don’t know how i should feel about knowing what i
am 

this lost and lonely soul who wanders this strange land but
i know that i can never go
back to the person i no longer am, this hopeless
soul, this rebel without a damn

i see the roads for me to choose, to
crack the codes, examine the clues, lord only knows what lit the fuse and what
explodes and what ensues

don’t know what i have got, don’t
know where i’ve been, don’t know if i’ll be caught or how the world will end

all i know is i
can never go back to the person i no longer am or
find any place in my heart to remember once again – 

special people i loved and give
my love to them, i know i
want to live forever but don’t know if i can, i only know i’m a rebel without a
damn

please try to understand i just
don’t give a damn and this where it all may stand, i
can’t look back, can’t re-attack, i’ve already done
the best that i can

i’m now black and blue, aware of how the
world can slip through the palm of my hands and once again for one and all to
see how all of this could never be quite worked out according to plan

god save this hopeless soul, this rebel without a damn

song for the living

i have a life with no beginning, a
beginning with no end, for me it’s always been such a clear little picture a
very simple thing to comprehend

but i smell trouble in the
afterlife, i’ve seen advance copies of the script and
according to the friends that i’ve got in higher
places there’s a chance we may be slightly ill-equipped 

some of you have bad reputations, i
can point to the people in the crowd and identify the faces and bring you to
the places where the bodies have been buried in the ground

tell me what’s been going on inside that door, it seems
we’ve been put into this position before, why is there a dead man lying on the
floor?  

what makes them keep coming back?  what makes them
keep coming back for more? 

who’s been is sleeping in the graveyard? is this the past
speaking in code? or the exhilarating thrill of staring down your mortal enemy?
this where the river meets the road

here’s a song for the living – let’s hope you lived with no
regret and here’s a promise to my family, friend and enemies – you ain’t seen nothing yet

this is when we step into the kill zone and see it all come
back to bite us in the face
then be fondly looking back but for amusement
purpose only to be sure our hearts are in their proper place

no one ever sees it coming, it just creeps up is what they
say like a hitman in the bushes by the patio, all quiet ’til the bullets start
to spray

here’s a prayer for the dying, for those who know there’s
not much left but humans in survival mode are notoriously desperate animals and
of course they may be planning one last theft

why can’t people see how simple science is? some easy
permutations and simple facts, it’s all so perspicuous, the reason for
existence and the way it boils down to random chance

your schedule won’t be getting any softer, you might not
find a way to make another stance
but it’s possible to grab some things that
life still has to offer, consider maybe taking one last dance

if they’re dumping your body in a drainage ditch and ask if
you have final words to say? wait for dramatic delay, then obligatory cliche – tell em’ riding high in april, shot down in may

don’t ask for forgiveness, ask to relive this and be
thankful if you enjoyed your little stay

no one ever see’s it coming, it just creeps up is what they
say, like a hitman in the bushes by the patio, all quiet ’til the bullets start
to spray 

no one ever sees it coming (in this world no one sees it
coming) it just creeps up is what they say (it just creeps up is what they
say) 

like hitman in the bushes in the shadows by the patio, all
quiet ’til the bullets start to spray, like a hitman hidden in the shadows by
the patio, all quiet ’til the bullets start to spray

dreaming all the way

brilliant minds uncover secrets held by physical law and
truths defined in modern quantum theory, do you look out at night and ponder in
awe far beyond what common man can see?

try walking out on the sea of love, keep dreaming every day
and see how some may thank the lord above, a bright guiding light shows the way

(chorus) when out at the darkest edge of the world stand
tall, wherever you may be, above the desert, under the waterfall, follow this
simple law – keep dreaming all the way

two shooting stars out on the open sky someday to reach
their destiny, in one magic moment those two stars collide, two hearts and
souls align for all to see

and there they stand where once the dream still smiled,
promising eternity, like seeing life right through the eyes of a child, the
irony is bittersweet (chorus)

heart to heart

there’s a borderline that disappears anytime i hear you knock upon my door, from the dawn of time ’til
the end of the line we’ll be heart to heart forevermore

look to the twilight tonight – at it’s
zenith a line divides the wall between love and war, if there’s a ray of light,
just keep it in sight ’til we’re heart to heart forevermore

another day turns to night, forms a silhouette just like –
two people heart to heart forever more

in the sun your hair is gold, light as feathers, soft as
snow so say you won’t, won’t, won’t ever go
i dream
in worlds of black and white, from the darkness stars shine bright and we’ll be
heart to heart forevermore

if you close your eyes and try perhaps someday you’ll find
the reason why we live until we die, then we’re gone

each time darkness comes upon us we’ll stand together, this
i promise, in light of day and dusk ’til dawn

do you fantasize about a love that never dies like waves
forever splash upon the shore?  there’s a rainbow high at the edge of the
sky where we’ll be heart to heart forevermore

paris girl

(intro) one love, one life, one hope, one dream, do you
realize what you mean to me?

why would I want something more than only you and only me? i will be your love forevermore, why want more than you and
only me? I will be your love forevermore

cindy c is adorable it’s
royalty blood in her veins, watch her strut the catwalks pose for cover shots
of magazines 

a child of the universe surrounded by her dreams, she’s
stealing my heart, stealing my heart, save me, save me 

cindy has that confidence, a
product of prestige, sure enough she’s loaded up on sugar coated
fantasies 

rule one remains the lessons from the tangled web we weave,
she’s stealing my heart, stealing my heart away from me 

she relies upon a simple philosophy – always leave them
wanting more, gives thanks to those who give her the powers that be ‘cuz anything is possible for her 

people love to see the starlight in her eyes, the look of
everlasting love, her life’s a roller coaster ride

then her heart jumps from the mountain to the sky, she’s
stealing my heart, is it still in her heart to let her love light shine?

she’ll drop the robe, strip for vogue and set the beaches
on fire, the good lord knows those pictures tell no lies

so take your pick of heroin chic or innocent school girl
eyes, her carefree world leaves nothing beyond her desire

she’s a paris girl walks moonlit
nights on the seine, watch her strut the catwalks pose for covers of a
magazine, a child of the universe surrounded by her dream 

she’s stealing my heart, is it still in her heart to
believe in me? the sun through her aquarium sparkles over the sea, it bakes the
mediterranean it fills her soul with ecstasy

there’s no where in the whole
wide world she would rather be, she’s stealing my heart, stealing my heart away
from me 

she relies upon a simple philosophy – always leave them
wanting more, guess who walks on water with the world at her feet, ‘cuz anything is possible for her

dangerous

i wear my heart out on my sleeve, what
I can give is nothing more, what I ask is to believe in you and in the word
forevermore

wanting love is easy enough, now tell me what you
need, are you going to call my bluff? are my eyes that hard to read? 

(chorus) i’ve been going through
life’s changes, testing new & deeper waters, you look cute but you look
dangerous and you’re exactly what I want

your love it is ethereal, a gift i
hold so dear, life is just so beautiful whenever you are near

i don’t want to die alone, for you love
i’d beg or steal, this is why i
bare my soul to you, this is why our fate is sealed (chorus)

we can’t help being the way we are with stormy hearts and
fiery eyes, even now I see your face in the stars, i
see a love that never dies

fine line

i’m watching you, you’re watching me, you
found yourself in life so easily
what would you do if you were me? if it were
up to you would you walk the fine line? walk the fine line, walk the fine line

(chorus)  walk the fine line,
walk the fine line, walk the fine line, walk the fine line

lost souls on the horizon being carefully pulled into the
black, they have all my prayers behind them that some day
they find their way back

break the glass, go through the window, the mirror
shatters, it’s very simple, don’t relapse, don’t rekindle, bury the past and
walk the fine line, walk the fine, walk the fine line (chorus)

eyes of gold

when you are alone in the dark of the night do you see a
never-ending sea of forces of people warring in their universes struggling to
keep up the fight to never let love die? 

it’s easy to see, just remember to only see, only see, only
see through eyes of gold, eyes of gold 

like a dream that never ends, like river that never bends,
like a heart that never mends that’s been broken too long, it may be time to
slow down

a penny for your thoughts but baby, please nothing too deep
‘cuz i know there could be
nothing in the word that could case suffering in such pretty face that looks so
sweet 

you are so true to form and you never miss a beat so baby
don’t say no, don’t say no, only see through eyes of gold, eyes of gold

like water over the dam, like a glacier over the sand,
learning to love again it’s a long dark road, long dark road but you can get
out there but the road is one way

when autumn leaves turn brown and orange put away your pain
pin storage, shut the door and throw the key away

if you summon up each bit of courage one thing of which you
can be sure is i will never let your poor heart break

when will you realize you can’t stop the jaws of fate? when
will you realize you can’t stop the jaws of fate?

girl of my dreams

do you ever wonder what it’s all about? can a simple person
figure it out? space and time, reason and rhyme, justice, honor and peace

i knew when i
saw her eyes of brown that nothing would ever keep me down from now until the
day that i drown i’ve found
the girl of my dreams

when all those bright lights again stream in, throw caution
high to twist in the wind that long lost longing for love kicks in when you
find the girl of your dreams

she takes me down, she gives me life, she’s heroin, sugar
and spice, clean and dirty, naughty and nice, she’s love, she’s pain

let us run nude on an island, pure and free, never to cry
again, live like kings and queens, with the girl of my dreams

i’ve always swung from the tallest trees
and got it done with the greatest of ease but i only
dream what a good boy dreams, my life has been fast and loose

but from the dark and out of the blue she pulled the
string, tightened the screw, offered her own unique point of view and now my
worries are few

god has given her unparalleled pizzazz like L&M
cigarettes and early sixties jazz, soft and bluesy, she ultimately has got
nothing to gain 

voice like peggy lee, loves brubeck and miles,  what you
see is just the way she swings, living life to extremes with the girl of my
dreams

let us in, unlock the asylum, wounds are healed, i’m ready to die again, how sweet it seems when you find
the girl of your dreams

and so wherever we may run, we’ll always have a place in
the sun, wish love and peace for everyone, may dark clouds never loom 

so give me the white picket fence, children playing, dogs
and cats, the full blue moon

myths

ooh dat tude

ooh the world seems doomed to me, there is no hope, there
is no peace, what is my responsibility? i feel no
wound, i feel no gloom, ooh dat
tude

an island shines out on the open sea, it kisses the sun,
its spirit is free, i want to live in total
tranquility but people say i’m rude, people say i’m crude, ooh dat tude

what is my, what is my destiny? where do these footsteps
move? where do they lead? what will my, what will my future bring? what to
pursue? ways to proceed?

ooh the world seems skewed to me, it seems unreal and full
of evil, lies & stupidity, it seems unglued, misconstrued, ooh dat tude

now in this doomed century, the world seems cruel, it seems
confused, it seems misused, my god we’re screwed, ooh dat
tude

aquarium

step inside this mystery, something cool is happening, one
big breath before you sink to the bottom of a deep blue sea, promise now you’ll
follow me, this is all you need to be free

(chorus) you are in the enchanted aquarium, you are in the
enchanted aquarium

if you can see in the dark, see beyond every star, you can
be who you are in your aquarium

far below the gentle waves an underworld of rocks and
caves, naked fun to frolic and splash and see each other without our masks
floating now with turtles and fish, a calm and peaceful state of bliss (chorus)

if you dream in the dark, wish upon every star, you can see who you are in your aquarium
if you listen you’ll hear the calls, submission to the cause, live in fantasy inside the walls of your aquarium

it’s weird to swim from the past, neon colors sparkle and
flash if you see through the glass of your aquarium 

through prisms and through fog, starfish kissin’ may seem odd, if you look you’ll see god in your aquarium
if you follow your heart, if your world falls apart, just be who you are in your aquarium

the view

in a world of complicated living, games of indestruction played by fools, terrorists, police &
politicians, twisted values, inconsistent rules

gunshots fired in schools kill
teens & children, imagine being there to face your doom, in washington, the congressmen are sleeping with N.R.A.
officials in the room

(chorus) out on a mountain top searching the horizon for a
clue, a path leads us higher to the top of the planet and from the sun emerges
the view

lately seems like everybody’s dying, lifetimes end for
people that i knew, it makes me want to quit but i’ll keep trying to find an inner strength to pull me
through

in my bones i feel the era ended,
reflections of the age from which we grew, a flight once at its peak is now
descended and fallen to a gentle see of blue (chorus)

blur

battle lines, drawn & measured, i
ask the question why – we can’t live together? why we’re lost? why we suffer?
all I see is the blur, all I see is the blur, all I see is the blur 

dollars research, then develops atomic bombs built to melt
us, we may find that god could help us but all I see is the blur, all I see is
the blur, all I see is the blur

when it gets dark, it makes me wonder why we play the part,
still we plunder? when will we start to trust each other? all I see is the
blur, all I see is the blur, all I see is the blur

violence rages, voices speak, i
know what I would like to do if it were up to me – i’d
just end all human suffering but all I see is the blur, all I see is the blur,
all I see is the blur

bimini

i could give all my money to charity,
watch it ripple out to the sea and sail all the way to bimini,
it wouldn’t matter to me

if time were a string burning at lightning speed i’d want it to show what i was
meant to give back to the sea

my home in regina, saskatchewan had so little use for me but they soon lost
the trail of this vagabond but i still hold them
close in my dreams 

and the echoes of bells in the faraway hills still bring
back the farm boy in me but a whole different part of me looks for a way to
believe

and if time heals all wounds and the truth sets you free i’d want it to show me a way to help me believe

when you’re sleeping with the enemy it cools the heart they
say but to me it’s a giant jig-saw puzzle i work on
every day, what i need is a moment of clarity to put
the pieces away 

are there clues in the water, so still, so deep and so
grey? as the gulf wind sweeps over salt water reefs i
wonder what more there can be in the vision of diamonds that glitter over the
sea

looking out from a perch of heaven and earth at the blue of
the endless sea, when the air is clear you can see from here to infinity 

will it swallow your heart?  do the waters part?
will a voice in the sky finally speak? i don’t know
if this is one tiny step or one giant leap 

i wonder what is calling as the last
stars are falling and the sun climbs over the sky at the beginning of the sea
and the endlessness of moments in time

this soul has been given the grace of god and flows to one
grand design at one with nature, the universe, body and mind

the sea may bring an epiphany like a call from higher
space, what i’ll do is release the chains from this
beast and find a way to get out of this place

like a poor boy who’s always been guided along by a power
he’s never seen then looks above the stars to see a light shining down on his
dream

dancing & singing in pain

god lays out a path for his children, gives them laws for
living every day, every day, i wonder if god has
control over those who may have lost their way, lost their way

(chorus) god may protect you, he may shield you in the
rain, dancing & singing in pain, dancing & singing in pain

god may protect you through the heartache and the strain,
dancing & singing in pain, dancing & singing in pain

some say god holds judgement when his rules are disobeyed,
disobeyed, he may say it loud and clear or he may turn and walk away, walk away

god holds power over people like me who walk through storms
and get tossed in the street each day and left there to stay (chorus)

sometimes it feels like god has quit caring and doesn’t hear even one word people say, when they pray
sometimes god shows preference and tips the scale for things we can’t explain, can’t explain

if i were god there’d be no starving children or evil forces there to fan the flame, fan the flame
how do we live in a world that’s gone crazy? who grabs the wheel?  who will steer the train, steer the train?

god may protect you or leave you standing there in shame,
dancing & singing in pain, dancing & singing – and then the bitter
taste of defeat even while playing at your own game 

dancing & singing in pain, dancing & singing in
pain, thy will be done, the end, the end, amen

then god stares you right in the eye and says i’m gonna make you pay, make you
pay, or he may leave you high and dry with nothing left to say, left to say

god may give you one last chance before it all goes down the drain, dancing & singing in pain
god may tell you to give up the fight when there’s nothing left to claim, dancing & singing in pain

god may protect you or hit delete right by your name,
dancing & singing in pain, god may not care if the world has gone deranged
or the world goes down in flames

myths

the first thing they ask is do you believe in this? it’s a
pretty simple question, the answer is no or yes, do you believe in
metamorphosis? do you believe, do you believe in myths?

they’ll want to know what got you so convinced, what you
learned as a child and anything you’ve learned since, it means more than blood
or money or things for which you wished 

it means more than god or science or anything that exists,
they’ll want to know if anything has been missed, it’s a pretty simple
question, do you believe in myths?

the wind blows from 2 dimensions on the dark side of the
cliffs, you’ll see some misdirection, different ways in which to guess

don’t be fooled by smoke or mirrors or choose cards from
unshuffled decks, beware of traps and deceptions as you take the final steps

don’t be fooled by looks on their faces or games that may
be fixed, they’ll be asking for the truth, try not to resist 

they’ll show you where you came from and show you where you’ve been led, they’ll know everyone you’ve talked to, know every book you’ve read
what was given, what was taken and everything you’ve said, they’ll know all that you’ve been taught, know the thoughts inside your head
they know about your sins and secrets that you hid, they’ll know everything about you and they will know everything you did

everyone is asked about the way they lived their lives and how it feels to take off the disguise
and how it feels to look into their eyes, to hear the gospel truth and then be asked – if you believed in lies?

you’ll endure heart pounding drama as they explain what
happens next, they’ll look inside your brain, the pressure may be intense,
they’ll ask how it feels to stare into the abyss 

and if you’re prepared to be a witness to your own death,
don’t try to look away or they will blow your soul to bits, don’t try to
escape, i’m afraid you’ll have little chance 

and it all leads up to one final question – do you believe
in myths?

be careful of hidden meanings and how certain words are
phrased, there may be baffling concepts and questions that need to be raised

be aware of how the devil works in mysterious ways, after
all we’re just actors with small parts in meaningless plays, walking blindly
into a light we only see on our darkest days

as time dissolves in the past with great pride they calmly
explain how it’s possible to solipsistically fool
yourself with your own legerdemain

next examine and decipher ways you’ve lived your previous
lives, you’ll behold and re-perceive the distant worlds beyond your eyes

and then can’t help but admire the clever way it’s all been
devised, it’s all so clear when a predetermined verdict is invoked – from
future, past & present lives 

beware of how they approach you, they’ll be armed with
double edged swords, beware of what they ask you & the fancy way they craft
their words

beware of their skillful sleight of hand and logic that’s
thorny & curved derived from phantasmagorical optical illusions that appear
in a frightening haunted house of cards

if they gave you one more day to walk along the streets, feel the wind on your face, feel the sun upon your cheeks, were given one more chance to re-examine your beliefs

would you fall for the same scams and the same crooked techniques? and make the same mistakes and fall for the same deceits?
be more knowing of the tones and of the ways the con-artist speaks? would you give it all away to them or let them break you down piece by piece?
or be seeing it in terms of what higher meanings one man seeks? then all is revealed in the words of one final judgement

one of those things * dénouement

it’s just one of those things that must be done, it’s just
one of those wars that must be won, it couldn’t be more clear time has finally
come, it’s just one of those things that must be done

the climb is steep, the hills are high, the night is sweet,
it fills the sky, the dive is deep, below us dangers lie, we now must keep our
hopes alive

it’s just one of those games that must be played, one of
those choices that must be made, one of those costs that must be defrayed, one
of those debts that must be repaid

that’s the way it looks tonight, night to day, dark to
light, all is good, all is right, it’s all in black, it’s all in white

it’s easy to say i have nothing
to lose and everyone tells me i have nothing to
choose, at this point it’s easy to make all the right moves at this point it’s
easy to walk in these shoes

one of those plans that must be used, one of those offers
that can’t be refused, one of those theories that must be proved, one of those
mountains that must be moved

what will be left when the earth is scorched? there lies
the wreckage, the carnage and pitchforks, i see
nobody showing remorse, i see normal laws no longer
enforced

i’ve been aware of passage and aging and i now have little time remaining
and i don’t care about me, but this is the main thing – as it’s been said by a wise man before – “the times they are a-changin“

it’s always the same thing I’ve always been claiming, at times it’s been freeing, at times it’s draining
and even a tiny bit entertaining, i just hope that someday, someway, somehow, someone can explain it to me
for my survival, this all was strengthening but for my soul – completely deadening
still the signs are there and they are threatening to me, it’s been a steady stream of folks out there with a goal of betraying me

is this for better, is this for worse?  is this for
hunger, is this for thirst?  is this for second, is this for first? is
this for the goals, ambitions and plans that have now been reversed?

one of those bells that must be rung, one of those same old
songs that must be sung, it couldn’t be more clear the time has come, it’s one
of those things that must be done

life

eversince

once upon a time i was lost and
lonely, there was a time i dreamed of you only, i remember writing poems as i
gazed the stars in the sky

i find ways to obey god’s wishes, work
my way through the hits and misses  while
counting on the one thing that matters most to get by

i’ve spent many painful days aimless in
dazes knowing only wrong ways out of those mazes 

but ever since the day i found
you, ever since i wrapped my arms around you, ever
since the day you told me you were mine

ever since you called my name from the darkness before i fell prey to the ways of the heartless, it seems you’ve
found a way to make this weary heart sigh and turn back the hands of time

i never see a light when it’s darkest
only seeing night through the eyes of an artist watching from the wings and
waiting for the sun to rise 

make no mistake, my heart’s still achin‘
every time i think of you my world starts shakin,’ it turns out you proved to be a master of disguise

in a world in which we’re buried in lies and illusion,
stepping in and out of states of delusion surrounded by clouds when life gives
a surprise

but here’s the one thing i still
can’t imagine – how it must have felt to cross that chasm knowing the chances
of no one hearing those cries

when the future’s in the past and the past has been
trampled you want your vision cleared but the picture’s been scrambled, it’s
more than you can bear to continue to follow those signs

if you’re going to a place where you’ve never been, each
moment with a chance again to begin, it is true you’ve only lived once ’til
that moment arrives exploding before your eyes….  

since the day I found you, when I wrapped my arms around
you

now the days are walks in the sunshine, now they seem to be
such a fun time,  could it be the planets now all
align?

so here’s to hoping these days last forever, walking hand
in hand by the shoreline together and never looking back and never looking
forward in time and just saying i’m yours and your
mine

serene

many trails we travel meander and wave, it’s a long, long
journey from the cradle to the grave and it can be a little rough on that bumpy
road to where you’re trying to get to

It’s like sliding along a highway in the sky and the moon
is smiling down on the shadows of the night and you’re haunted by the thought
of wondering if you’ll ever learn to love again

(chorus) do you remember when love was like a cool mountain
stream and every day was like living in a dream?

do you remember when everything was totally serene? (do you
remember when everything was totally serene?)

and even if you journey for miles in the dark just to wind
up dying of a broken heart, it will make sense in the end to the one you
dedicate your heart to

always follow love wherever it may lead, only love can make
you believe in a spiritual existence of being here to love one another

it’ll make you wonder – what is blowing in the warm summer
breeze? is there something magic in the trees? can you make this mad world stop
and find a way to let go of everything?  

you can fly away forever if you open up your wings, to find
a piece of heaven just hold on to your dreams 

and find an island you can hide on where everything is
totally serene (island you can hide on where everything is totally serene)

and when you’ve seen as far as the eyes can see and dreamed
of much more than one dreamer can dream, make one more wish upon a star to once
again be totally serene (chorus)

deep purple dream  (peter derose)

when the deep purple falls over sleepy garden walls and the
stars begin to twinkle in the sky, though the mist of a memory you wander on
back to me breathing my name with a sigh

in the still of the night once again i
hold me tight, though your gone your love lives on when the moonlight beams and
as long as my heart will beat sweet love will always meet here in my deep
purple dream 

let’s let yesterday die

today we’ll fly, we’ll pierce the morning sky, we’ll break
out from the dust and tear the chains away 

we’’ll claw with brave and
fearless might, all odds we will fight we’ll hold our hands up high, we’ll hold
our hands up high 

hold ‘em high, let’s let
yesterday die, when spring time comes that long awaited thaw begins 

and now the sun is reaching brand new highs, warm winds
touch our lives, your arms reach for mine, your arms reach for mine

let it die, let it die, let’s let yesterday die, let go
forever, the future has never looked this bright before and now with one hope
still alive, i’m opening my eyes and looking to the
sky still hoping to survive

smilin’ in the sun

everybody sees you smiling’ in the sun, everybody knows you
love those looks from everyone as pure as you can be, as squeaky clean as you
can come, the sunny sky is what your heart believes in

everybody knows, maybe more than you admit, you love the
things you’re given, you take all you can get, oh, you’re wild and you’re wet,
a little too forlorn to fall in love

falling in love (everybody sees you), falling in love (smilin’ in the sun), falling in love, falling in love

in the gleam of the city lights, you walk the wire, in the
gleam of the pretty lights from which you hope to be admired

the heat in life is all that you require, lying in the sun
makes you hotter, lying here in paradise, of that you’ll never tire, you’ll lie
’til you can stand no more

what everybody sees is what everybody gets, anyone who
knows you knows you’re always at your best but now about to seize whatever
happens next, that one mistake will soon be long forgotten

teenage love (everybody sees you), teenage love (smilin’ in the sun), teenage life (everybody sees you),
teenage love

people love the soft, seductive eyes, gentle as a lamb,
behind you is the self-destructive life you once led, tomorrow you will walk
upon your cool pacific sands, don’t compromise your cool pacific stands

don’t compromise, apologize or alter your plans, you only
need a small amount of time

if ever you get weary, baby, come to me and cry, together
we’ll go dreaming in the moonlit summer sky

we’ll flap our tired wings until they wilt by our side,
don’t fret tonight, tomorrow we will fly, there will always be tomorrow, you
need not feel sorrow

summer’s almost gone

i know it won’t be long, it won’t be
long until summer’s almost gone, i know it won’t be
long, it won’t be long until summer’s almost gone

we’ll be having fun, we’ll be having fun all summer long
and i know it won’t be long, it won’t be long until
summer’s almost gone

i believe in love, i
believe it may be all we’ve got and i’m believing in
it, i’m believing in it ready or not

one – i’ll never doubt you, two –
i’ll always want you, three – nice and easy to see
how this would all begin and now my heart will spin eternally

i will be in love, i
will be in love all summer long and this will always be just for you and me our
summer song

what i’ll always see is only you
and me touching and walks in the dark, holding hands together, it’s just like
we will never again be apart

i’ll be telling everyone that we have done
everything under the sun and i’ll be swearing up and
down i don’t know how or where this magic comes from

only in my summer dream, only seeing you and me in sunsets
and dawns, we’ll go from one to three, from A to C while learning rights from
wrongs

one – i’ll never doubt you, two –
i’ll always want you, you and only me, three – i’ll always love you and always know how crazy love can
be 

and this will only be and always be our one and only summer
love, please remember me, please remember what it is and what it was

and you will always be the only one i’ll
ever be thinking of and there will never be, there will never be another summer
love

minneapolis

we walk along the stream, it’s like beautiful dream, it
winds and flows toward minnehaha falls, there are
lakes of blue and many things to do from morning ’til the dim of evening calls

in minneapolis, minneapolis, the city of glowing lights and shining stars

there are cattails and trees and robins and bees on a
flowery trail we walk with casual ease, we find a way to stroll through warm
and cold and even in winter snow or autumn leaves

in minneapolis, minneapolis a city with sweet and wonderful charms, minneapolis, minneapolis where
all are welcomed with open arms

for the vikings and twins a new
season begins for those who follow hopes are high, if the snow is white or
season is bright, it’s always nice to see a sunny sky

in minneapolis, minneapolis, the city of glowing lights and shining stars

1963

the winters didn’t seem so long or feel so gray, nice and
slow the ice and snow would melt away, in 1963, the fresh spring air was clear
to breathe and up above us a big blue beautiful sky to see

the summer moon was high and bright back then, back then, i gazed into the distant night again and again, my life
long felt security had built a fire surrounding me, the comfort i felt is all i would ever need

in 1963, a day went down in history and i’ll
never forget the way it hit the world

a dallas, texas
bullet shot rang so loud my heart it stopped on that cold and gray november day

the shot would knock me to my knees, the air went still,
time would freeze the past was carried away on angels
wings

this was the day the innocent died, this was the day new
powers arrived, now they’ve stepped in, old ideals swept aside

what happens after the bullets scream?  is this the
new american dream? new pieces in play – more deadly,
all-knowing, more powerful war machine  

now the world wakes up to see this brand new place will
never be like those innocent days before 1963

shades of gray  (barry mann & cynthia weil)

when the world and i were young,
just yesterday, life was such a simple game, a child could play

it was easy then to tell right from wrong, easy then to
tell weak from strong, when a man should stand and fight or just go along

(chorus) but today there is no day or night, today there is
no dark or light, today there is no black or white, only shades of gray

i remember when the answers seemed so
clear, we had never lived with doubt or tasted fear

it was easy then to tell what was fair, when to keep and
when to share, how much to protect your heart and how much to care (chorus)

it was easy then tell truth from lies, selling out from
compromise, whom to love and whom to hate, the foolish from the wise (chorus)

rebirth

i’ve been around for such a long, long
time, in many ways i feel i’m
cursed, i’ve been waiting for a simple little sign to
guide me back to my rebirth

once i thought that i was king of the world, ruler of the earth, now i’m back at the beginning of time at the point of my
rebirth

i need a place that keeps me safe and
warm and gives me wonderment and mirth and takes me back to the place i was born to the point of my rebirth

it may go to show how justice is blind and where the eyes
of truth are perched and what is left is just footprints in time and asking
what it’s worth

i’ll be wishing on every star and every
grain of sand on planet earth and i will pray until
the last days have gone for the chance of my rebirth

there was a day i looked for hope
to save mankind but now i’ve lost the longing and the
thirst, now i find i’m
going backward in the quicksand of time, getting lost, getting hurt

i have struggled to keep up with the
game and struggled for a way to find some trust and tried to crawl my way out
from a labyrinth of pain to find my hopes were crushed

above the clouds there is one thing to find, to see the
origins of one’s search and then to learn how it all gets defined and brings me
back to my rebirth 

i’ve been around for such a long, long
time, in many ways i feel i’m
cursed, i’ve been waiting for a simple little sign to
guide me back to my rebirth

hazy sky

there’s a hazy sky over the suburbs, the wind whispers down
from the gray, i stepped outside, opened my eyes and
greeted the brand new day

it’s a quiet sunday morning on
the cul-de-sac, the outlook on the horizon is blurred, the skies aren’t getting
clearer and the answers are no nearer than they appear, guess i got what i deserved

last night me and my dog went out walking in the fog, we
took that trail by the underpass that curls down toward old highway eight

the headlights in the haze kinda
put me in a daze i went through my metaphysical
transcendent little ritual and ended up contemplating deep thoughts while in a
trance-like state

there’s hazy sky over the suburbs, the wind whispers down from
the gray, i stepped outside opened my eyes and saw
the same things i seem to see each day

on that blind divided highway by the funeral home near the
babbling of the waterfall’s cascade, while in a mesmerizing trance, in the
pocket of my pants I found the tickets to last year’s memorial day parade

i was lost in a yellow sea of
dandelions while my dog was chasing butterflies by the stream, it may have been
coincidence or by fate i found those tickets just as
the sun broke through and finally started to beam

in the crawlspace beneath my house are 2 small aqueducts
where the overflow from the water pipes creates lagoons

here you’ll find the circle of life, lice eaten by mice and
the mice are devoured by snakes and raccoons 

it reminds me of how i wanna go to die in the bahamas
and lie sprawling under a god-scape of endless bluebut
before i go there to disappear in thin air there’s a
little more meat still left on the bone to chew

so with the light of day diminished and this soliloquy
almost finished i’d politely like your attention
while i continue

for the first time ever seen in this vicinity an eagle’s
nest sits high among the pines, i saw it out by the
cemetery where my mom and dad are buried as i looked
forlornly toward the western sky

i’d do anything to be sitting in our lawn
chairs again and watch the sun set with them one last time but they’ll always
live in spirit and i know i’ll
always feel it each time i see the eagle flying by

on the outskirts of town is a barbed-wire fence above which
wildlife must never ever climb but on one of my walks i
saw it jumped by a fox who ran wildly through the swamp toward the county line

and we’ll never know if he ever crossed that line but i’m certain if he didn’t he died trying, as for me what’s
up next, i’ll also hop that fence and follow that
fox’s tracks for awhile

rebel 2

this is what i am, this is what i do, this is my plan, this is my cue, this is why my aim
is true, my aim is high, this is all i ever want to
do, to live forever, live forever, like a rebel without a clue

i may be blind, may be confused, but
this is all i ever wanted to do, i
can’t say whether i should know better, i just know what i am, i want live forever like a rebel without a damn

i live by the cards i
drew, i follow the sky, my aim is true, flying blind
with no balloon, deep in the eye of the monsoon

don’t know where i have gone,
don’t know where i began, don’t know where i belong or where the plane may land, don’t know how i should feel about knowing what i
am –

this lost and lonely soul who wanders this strange land but
i know that i can never go
back to the person i no longer am, this hopeless
soul, this rebel without a damn

i see the roads for me to choose, to
crack the codes, examine the clues, lord only knows what lit the fuse and what
explodes and what ensues

don’t know what i have got, don’t
know where i’ve been, don’t know if i’ll be caught or how the world will end

all i know is i
can never go back to the person i no longer am or
find any place in my heart to remember once again – 

special people i loved and give
my love to them, i know i
want to live forever but don’t know if i can, i only know i’m a rebel without a
damn

please try to understand i just
don’t give a damn and this where it all may stand, i
can’t look back, can’t re-attack, i’ve already done
the best that i can

i’m now black and blue, aware of how the
world can slip through the palm of my hands

and once again for one and all to
see how all of this could never be quite worked out according to plan

god save this hopeless soul, this rebel without a damn

please try to understand i’ve
already done the best that I can, i’m now black &
blue aware of how the world can slip through the palm of my hands, can’t look
back, can’t re-attack 

please give my love to them, for all the world to see this
could never be worked out according to plan, please save this hopeless soul,
this rebel without a damn

life

if ever you have pain in your heart, full of fear and all
alone in the dark, out there searching for one more brand new start every day
and every night

that’s when you may hear the voices start to sing, that’s
when you may feel the tide begin to swing, that’s when you may see a new story
begin with new chapters to write

keep searchin’ you will find the
open door, you may find the things you’re looking for, a place in which the sun
may shine once more from morning til night

keep searchin’ you will finally
find your dream, keep searchin’ you’ll find every
little thing, wait for what the winds of change may bring and hold on
tight 

you’ll learn that if you see things at their core you’ll
finally find the search for answers more and more leads to the long and winding
shore you’ve searched for all your life

it’s what people say the game of life is
for – to maybe someday even up the score, simply put it’s just the nature of
the war and the nature of the fight    

keep searchin’ you will finally
find your dream, keep searchin’ you’ll find every
little thing and hope the fruits of new ideas may spring with new apples to
bite

if you’re past the point where you have made your final
thought, have taken your final desperate shot, a sense of given all you’ve got…..or maybe not quite?

fight until your strength is gone, fight until there’s no
way to hold on, then what if blackness spins into dawn and sheds a new light?

it’s only then you’ll know the meaning of this song though
it’s something you were feeling all along, it’s something to believe in, right
or wrong so choose what you might

keep fighting til there’s no
place left fall, fight til there are no words left to
call then there may be justice for all and may god give us light, may there be
justice and love and may god give us life

suicide hill

you

the world can’t be explained, there should be no attempt
to, but the one thing that will never wane is my desire for you

there would be nothing to retain, there would be nothing to
redo and the truth was clear and plain until i met
you

it doesn’t matter what they say, it doesn’t matter what
they do, if they take it all away or give it back to you

it doesn’t matter what you’ve seen, it doesn’t matter where
you’ve been, the cut was pure and clean and we would do it all again

yeah it took me by surprise, i
didn’t ask but wanted to, beneath the surface the mystery lies so the question i withdrew

i’ve seen half the written page and what
remains I’ve seen right through, ambiguous and vague and not even close to
being true

it was close enough to touch but not close enough to see,
how i wanted you so much, how i
wanted it to be

it doesn’t matter what they say, it doesn’t matter what
they assume when it all gets swept away, becomes gossamer and jejune

it doesn’t matter where or why, it doesn’t matter how or
who, we’ve flown as far as we can fly, no more damage to undo

because i love you always have
and always knew, how I’d pay for my mistakes, now i
must do what i must do

because i love you, always have
and always will, time to face what i must face, take
the bitter little pill

we’ve gone as far as we can go – gone as far as we can
pursue, this has all been done before –  we are seeing nothing new

there could be no larger flame or tighter rope to hold on
to, can’t accept what they are saying – it’s the one thing i
refuse to do

fear

sometimes i need a break from the
worries of the day, i need something to make it all
go away, a need to escape is all i’ve got to say,
someone tell me what i’ve done, tell me what i’ve now become

i live in a life of fear &
desperation, i live in a life of fear i suppose, there doesn’t seem to be any kind of explanation,
someone tell me what I’ve done, someone tell me what went wrong 

when they’ve got you in their crosshairs and they’re
counting down from ten, a chilling realization discovering when there was a
time before they had you under their chin 

i wonder what went wrong, i wonder what went wrong for me

my heart is in chains and i’m
dancing with a ghost, it’s a song of all or nothing & i’m
hoping for the most, in my dreams I still find myself holding you close, i wonder what went wrong, i
wonder what went wrong 

i live a life of fear &
desperation, all i look for is a way to save my soul
but i don’t seem to see any kind of indication that
that could be a realistic goal

it’s symptom of my sadness to get lost at every turn, i watch with melancholy madness, i
watch it crash and let it burn 

i just see myself as waiting in the
calm before the storm, i’m just trying to survive,
survive until my ship comes along

i drown my sorrows in pent up
frustrations, i look for a way to have my story told,
i’m in the middle of a swarm of appalling allegations
but this spy has come in from the cold   

i tend to be a non-monogamous dude, not
crazy about sleep, not crazy about food, those are convictions to which i am glued, sad state in which I’ve now been found, someone
tell me what am I to do? 

hunter thompson writes about fear
& self loathing, it’s like he’s got a window to
my soul, with nothing hide, there could be no thing
to show me what the purpose is or what i may be
willing to hold

out for the kill & climbing the planks, i haven’t got this skill, i’m
firing blanks, i long for her still but it’s a job
with no thanks, love is gone, love is gone

wasted

i’ve been runnin’
round nude in the night since you left my sight i
have no light to follow, it’s sad but it’s true, i’ve
run dry, sad & cruel to be alive with no one to be with to wallow

(chorus) i’ve been wasted,
wasted, wasted, wasted, wasted, wasted

cold and alone, painful times, more and more darkness
climbs, i have no wall to crawl through, all i can do is to cry, with great woe i
ask why i have no floor to sprawl to (chorus) 

now goin to A, then to G, back to
A, then to C, to A or D, I don’t know, runnin’ round
nude in the sky, I refuse to comply, the truth is hard to swallow 

it’s been a long deadly ride, i’ve
probed and i’ve pried, i
know my heart is hollow,  can’t everybody see
this has all been denied? it all comes from one side and i’ve
become a desperado 

they’ve cut the wires as I fly, have destroyed my supply,
it’s eye for an eye and they won’t move, this has been a long, ungodly ride, it
cannot be described and long been dead upon arrival (chorus)

meltdown mode

(dreams, hallucinatory images – we’re all from the future,
we just don’t know it yet)

these dark fires only break out in stars in skies forever
changing, these are dangerous lies, unhinged frenzied cries 

brought out to defeat, brought out to destroy with no
style, no grace, just out to find the taste of living & breathing fire, all
consequences dire

tonight you can not hide, you
glow & burn inside, tonight you are a beautiful child and tonight i plan to drive you wild

(chorus) we are in meltdown mode (we are now in meltdown
mode)

oh lord, meltdown mode (we are now in meltdown) meltdown,
meltdown, oh lord, we are now on meltdown road 

come to me & we’ll get lost where we can’t be captured
step up to the line, your side or mine, the look is in your eyes, you’re alone
& going nowhere like being inside the hole, are ready to lose control?

dreams – hallucinatory images, mentally occurring
disturbances, disreactive pre-conditioned reflex
theory, histrionic, artificial & dramatic displays of emotion 

a collage of whirling random intersecting stratagems,
consciousness of subconscious thought processes, pavlov’s
disassociative displaced identity disorder

a mind-set of disconnected, dissective
cognitive & noncognitive anxiety axioms

bright lights, losing & a-winnin‘  delivering the shit and while the world keeps a-spinnin‘, faster lanes taken to the limit and living like
pigs & loving every minute

it’s all spilling out, worshipping of women, deep secrets
unlocked in pursuing my  religion, too many
downers, too many uppers, face wedged down from falling into gutters

reading the clock, it’s boiling down to seconds, the system
is blocked with no misapprehensions, if all that it takes is luck &
personality – we’ve got what it takes to make the future explode

the world can apply a lot of pressure the key is to try not
to let your insanity show (your insanity show)

if you climb and explore the outer limits you will find
there are none so never give up hope, never give up hope, hold on forever,
forever, hold on forever, hold on forever (chorus)

the b****

you photograph like marilyn, you
like it when you’re seen without a stitch but it’s there to stop comparin,’ it don’t take you seven
years to get the itch 

what the world is well aware of – you don’t care cuz’ baby you’re the bitch 

you pretend you’re in your 20’s but you were born in 1966
and you’re a long, long way from michigan but no one
in their right mind believes your british

your life is splendid and spectacular but like your phony
accent it’s fictitious, the bitch, the bitch, the bitch

a lot of details in your book – the 3 ways, M & M’s
& chains & whips, what a shock what i was
reading to find that you’re an exhibitionist

between the boy toys and the joy toys just admit it –
you’re a junkie for sex

you put your your body on
display, so proud of what it is and what its gits and
there is no one in the world who could claim that they have never seen your…..um – let’s just go with breasts

but like a ride at the amusement park, beware and enter  only at your own risks

with your mouth on your popsicle, it brings back to summer
days when you were six and some now say it’s possible it’s way you learned your
secret dirty tricks

say those who are familiar with the same way that you’re
sucking on those long and hard popsicle sticks, long and hard S-T-I-C-K-S see
all ideas, question mark  

you dance around the room eyeing faces from other lives you
could destruct, a wad of bills inside your bra, a nice warm place right where
you like to keep it tucked

you glance down at your watch and count the hours since the
last time you were …..you know what (rhymes with
tucked, but no “t.” instead the letter after “e”) 

big laughs at all the parties, pin the tail in places
nobody expects, then bring out the big balloons that just get popped with tiny
little pricks

to prove their love to you, you plead for boys to get into
the crease, a case good girl gone bad, now you like that tongue between your
cheeks

when you say you dance around the room, is there
double-meaning in those lyrics?

you photograph like marilyn, you
like it when you’re seen without a stitch, fond of hedonistic pleasures, fond
of lifestyles of the famous and the rich

fond of the photo of the white dress as the wind blows
above the subway grates

v.d.

it began when i discovered an
unmistakable discomfort, v.d., what i remember thinking  is how
this could be happening to me, but i’d heard of it
before, i knew it couldn’t be ignored, v.d.

i telephoned the clinic, i told them i’ve picked up v.d., i gave them the
descriptions of the unmistakable symptoms of v.d.,
and they urgently suggested that I come in and be tested for v.d.

they told me they suspected that i’d
probably been infected with v.d., my emotions seemed
to stiffen when they gave their suspicion (v.d., v.d., v.d.)

and according to their opinion they said that I could be a
victim quite possibly but couldn’t say with great precision the odds of such
transmission with any certainty

but anyone in this condition should be seeing a physician
immediately, those found in this position with the signs of this affliction
must rush to be seen

you could told with great
conviction to be braced for their prediction – results could be bleak

i showed it to the doctor, he told me
what i caught was v.d., he
was talkin’ with the nurses, he said this was the
worst case he’d seen, he had them gather ‘round the station for a group
examination of me

he said you should not have to worry if treat your vd early, it could depend on if you’re willin’
to talk shots of penicillin, warns any man and any woman with a chance to see
it comin‘ – watch out for v.d.

you should not have to worry if treat your v.d. early, it could depend on if you’re willin’ to talk shots of penicillin and it may have to be
endured for several weeks before you’re cured

people better not forget to be aware of this grim threat –
watch out for v.d.

ludes

when the wild night life concludes and the cold morning sun
shines through i just don’t know what I’d do without
you, 

the thought of the future scares me and waking up just
terrifies me, i just don’t know what i’d do without you, 

we’re stuck in the night, always caught up in the same old
fight, locked up where we can’t escape

you say it’s like i’m lost in
space and i say that’s just the friggin’
breaks, i’ve got to find a way to pay for some ludes

babe, i love ludes when the wild
night life concludes, when the cold morning sun shines through, baby i’ve got dreams, there’s a star i’m
sure we can reach, if i stay with you will you stay
with me

you say you’re so sick of wild shifts in how my mood will
sway, i say just gimme back
my two cents and I’ll be on my way, baby, if you knew the torment i’ve been through, you’d know what to do

when thing gets too strange, too dark, too depressing, it make me insane it makes me go crazy

i just don’t know what to do when the
cold morning sun shines through on you In the cold
morning sun I love you and only you, when the cold morning sun shines through,
baby i mss you 

the thought of future scares me and waking up just
terrifies me, i just don’t know what I’d do without
you

heart with no home

when I dream about tomorrow my heart sinks like a stone, my
heart has no home, i will always be searching for
something, for what i do not know, my heart has no
home

when i think of lost loves and
things i should have known my heart has no home and i’m always looking back at chances i
have blown, my heart has no home

if there is thunder, if there is snow, if there is darkness,
if there’s calm, my heart is gone, can someone tell me when the broken heart
loves again? my heart can not win

i will always be spinning the wheel – i know not where the numbers may fall, my heart and soul
are gone, my mind has no hope at all

i see the clock ticking away, the
comments on my phone, my heart has no home, say this isn’t real, dagger to the
bone, my heart has no home

once there was sunshine, once there was dark, once there
was hope, now there is not, my home has no heart

when i think about god and think
about love, my heart is lost, looking back at the attacks and following the
tracks and the way my past has been torn, my heart has no home

when i’m walking around with head
pointed down, wondering how and when this went wrong, my heart is gone,
whatever roads one walks upon, wherever one may roam, my heart has no home

roxanne

i walk past southdale,
the sandpits & suicide hill on my way back home again

we’ll meet again someday i know,
maybe by then someway you’ll know how much i really love
you and how i’m thinking of you and how i hope you change your mind and maybe come back to me some
day

i know that sometimes things went slow
but sometimes things need a chance to grow you’ve always had that special
smile, you’ve always had that special kind of style

i thought we belonged together through
high and low but now we’ll never know, on the ground there was still a little
bit of snow, remember where we would always go?

then one day my car wouldn’t start and we just sat there
parked alone in this christian world were a boy and a
girl who were only 16 years old 

and there we were ‘neath the
starry sky and then the conversation went a little bit dry 

and you said “hey, let’s smoke some grass,” i said “i’m afraid i’ll have to pass” and you put your hand in mine, and me, i guess i was a little too shy

that was my last day as an innocent youth, left only to
stand up and face the truth when i finally realized
the stars were no longer in your eyes 

and then the next day i came to
school so fuckin’ drunk that i stunk like a skunk,
now i know how badly i just
fucked up 

now i just-watch as you walk
past, how did all of this just seem to happen way too fast? 

now you’ve found a so-called better man and you walk
through the hallways hand in hand, same bellbottoms, ponytail, same perfume,
cut-offs, my god this is painful as hell

and although i’m grateful for
what you gave, i wish i
would have stolen your heart away, i guess i’ll never really love anybody but roxanne
and although short i am sometimes i
pretend i’ve become a better man

and now i’ve had some time and a
chance to think, now i hate roxanne
so much it stinks, she wouldn’t let myself be me, she just tried to use me
can’t you see?

she was so dumb but she was smart, she wasn’t hurt but she
broke my heart, i smoked my first joint way back last
may
and now there is something i’d like to say

i tried to ease the pain some way but i may have gotten carried away and now my mind seems fried
and it always seems like there’s no one there to help me

we’ll meet again some day i know, maybe by then some way you’ll know how much i really love you, how i’m
thinking of you, how i hope you’ll change your mind
and maybe come back to me some day

we’ll meet again some day i know, maybe by then someway you’ll know, how i completely love you, how i’m
thinking of you, you know i love you roxanne, why can’t you see how much i’ve
changed? 

i’ve now become a completely different man
and though i’m glad for what you gave, i wish I would’ve stolen your heart away, i know i’ll never really love
anybody, fuck you, roxanne! 

i know i’m
just shit, i’m wrong, i’m
just so sorry you are gone, so sad you won’t come back where you belong and i pray to this god my heart will mend and that i’m never hurt like this again

i’ll search until the end of time, i’ll search until the day you’re mine, i
promise I’ll never stop trying, i’ll search my heart,
my soul, my mind until i find a way to make you come
back 

the coast

l.a.

i’ve been sitting here all day, the sky has
turned cold & gray, i have nothing much to say so
hey which way to l.a.? 

i’m just a lazy-bones or so it once
seemed, you learn to crawl then you learn how to creep, is there something in
the air that smells sweet? do you look or do you leap?  

says every bit of wisdom you own – if you make it, you make
it alone but if something should go wrong you’ll be 2000 miles from home

nobody’s gonna look at you,
nobody’s gonna tell you what to do but somebody might
know what you’re going through

nobody’s gonna show you any pity,
you may need to learn how to run cuz‘ you can’t
change your mind, leave your cares behind or turn back once the journey’s begun

don’t let it all come crumblin‘
down on you, as you know the world can grow cold and all would agree that fail
or succeed it’s sure to be the last place you’ll go

there’s pain in the cold minnesota
rain, the sky is lashing out on the lake, those lonely voices seem to say
you’ve got to get away,

you’re in the middle of what has never been real and you’ve
always kept your destiny sealed but now you want the answer revealed and it
lies in those four wheels

it’s the way you always hoped it would be, every corner of
the whole world to see but you’ve got to believe you can turn that key

nobody’s gonna look at you,
nobody’s gonna tell you what to do but somebody might
know what you’re going through 

nobody’s gonna show you any pity
but the lust is second to none, you’ll get more each day while wasting away in
the warm california sun

and when they find you they will fondle you so you better
know what to expose, you see it’s easy to see you could easily succeed you
could easily not even come close

hey, i’ve been sitting her all
day, the sky has turned cold & gray and i have
nothing much to say so hey which way to l.a.

i’ve been sitting here so long i can’t see, in fact since autumn of 2003 but i’ll be gone by the end of the week

kamikaze kind of mood

i believe the tide is turning, in my
belly i feel it burning, the winds whip up a fire
leaving all in her path in ruin 

my momma didn’t love me but i’ve
got to believe in something so get me in a kamikaze kind of mood

i once had a heart too tender ,my days were full of splendor when i saw her soft reflection on a darkly painted moon

i wish i knew
better but i feel it’s now or never, so get me in a
kamikaze kind of mood

(chorus) give me one from the heart, one from the dark, get
me in a kamikaze kind of mood

she left no doubt wavin‘ bye bye bye, where is she now? don’t
we all identify?

the one thing that’s sure about life is nobody let’s you go around twice, there’s gonna
be moments when everything hinges on not going off on one of those binges

but i need something to make my
head stop spinning, something to say all is forgiven so get me in a kamikaze
kind of mood

each night i go to bed with
johnnie walker red, it makes me feel like there’s angels in my room 

and though i feel like satan when the morning sun is waitin‘,
tonight i’m in a kamikaze kind of mood (chorus)

wild crimes

wild crimes, these are the wild times, a time to test your
will and this time blood will spill, the chain has broken, found guilty over
past misdeeds hopes of being set free are dead and gone

existing in a silent cage the sentence has begun, you can’t
stop hating, hating, wild crimes, wild crimes

why does it matter if you’re right or wrong? why does
matter at all? find where the missing links belong, let the pieces fall, keep
fighting ’til the fight is gone the fight a little bit more

in the end when the picture’s drawn you will know you will
always be hungry, be desperate and alone, you will always be known as a soul
who cannot be saved until the day you die like a dog with no home

the sentences has begun, the
pendulum has swung, wild crimes, wild crimes, why does it matter if you’re weak
or strong?  rich or poor?

turn around and put the blindfold on let your knees fall to
the floor, keep fighting ’til the fight is gone then fight a little bit more

in the end when the picture’s drawn you’ll know who won the
war, as you enter your new prison a million worms begin to crawl, you feel so
dirty as the jagged edge is twisted into your flesh

unpoison me now

whoa, how did i get into this
mess?  i’m a man with weakness as i’m sure you’ve all guessed but i’m
tired of this garbage, fed up with this trash, i want
out of it now, i want out of it fast

but something still haunts me inside of my soul, something
still wants me i cannot control

(chorus) unpoison me now, you’re
the only one left in the world that knows how, unpoison
me now, let the road find a bend, help me let it end somehow

i try to remember the original sin, a
moment to stop, a place to begin, addicted to addiction there’s no doubt about
that but i’m well past the point where there’s no
turning back

and i feel like i’m holding on by a thread and i
can’t stop the voices inside of my head (chorus)

the definition of poison is a substance designed to kill
you get addicted to the shit and walk straight into the deepest bowels of hell

ignoring cries of warning you find yourself wanting more
still and the sickest revelation is you went there by your own free will
(chorus)

hate

i’ve been swimming in the oceans, been
going through the motions, i’ve been feeling angry
emotions and i’ve been hating it

my brain has crossed its circuits it keeps spinning with no
purpose, it makes everything seem so worthless and i’ve
been hating this

(chorus) but as the outcome of my fate keeps drawing
nearer, i keep seeing my reflection in the mirror, i keep looking at a face that’s full of fear and the
reasons for my hate keep getting clearer

through dark caves i go stalking,
each new step reveals something shocking but i just
bravely keep on walking

i’m not young anymore and i’ve been living in the dark and i’m
haunted by a past that just won’t bury itself and let me move on

and now i see how deeply the
wounds were carved and now i’m finally beginning to
see how deeply i’ve been scarred

what they feed me is delicious, they keep showering me with
kisses, it makes me feel like doing something vicious

i’ve been an item for you to save, i’ve an object for you to gage, i’ve
been the target of your rage and i hate you

through all the pain, through all the sorrow, i’ve been out-begged, i’ve been
out-borrowed on this dark and lonely road i’ve always
followed (chorus)

incision

an eerie, ominous push and pull has carried away this
tortured soul and washed up on this island of ice

lifeline snapped, the plot thickens, exposed are many deep
incisions which i’ll always feel, cool, clean and
precise

weapons drawn, instincts prepare for the coming attack of a
soul laid bare, something is trying to cut me down to size

those parasites and armies of leaches tearing at the world
pieces by pieces, the names will be called as the skin is stabbed with their
knives

childhood lost, wounds reopened, bridges crossed, spirit
broken, i pierce my soul, all is recognized

piranhas circle as lines are being tugged, below these
rocky cliffs are whirlpools of blood, it’s as if i’ve
fallen in and am now in a fight for my life

our open fire society worships superiority and sacrifice to
assure that the mighty will thrive

will you practice their religion and rise above the
competition and never take a look back at what didn’t survive through the
night?

when in their hearts their pain will grow and from their
veins cold blood will flow but never shall they draw one drop from this ice

evil lurks behind their lust, to me it’s just so obvious,
don’t obey the commands of dark, angry voices and minds

the coast

in the soaring wind you’re captured, as it howls you are
blown on a bone chilling voyage into the unknown

as you fly you are grasping for someone to hold you close
but you’re the solitary passenger, have you blown way off course?

on the mirror below the smokey
clouds are mountains of snow, you cut through them with the razor’s edge and
descend down the slope

living on the coast, living on the coast, living on the
coast, living on the coast

and you can’t stand the lows but you can’t live without the
highs, god only knows a martyr you symbolize 

and you’re heart, like those
evasive dreams is picked up and then let go, so it’s back to the battle lines
and on with the show 

be courageous on the launching pad, don’t let them know
you’re numb with fear, you better hope that god is near you or your ashes will
be scattered at sea when the countdown reaches zero

skinnydipping in hell

i wore a look that said born to lose
and a dirty pair of tennis shoes when i stepped
inside and strolled across the room 

i’d heard this town was a little rough
but i’d come prepared to hang in tough, i broke off the shell of my cocoon 

i met a girl with gold and silver
jewels wrapped on a chain i told her maybe tonight i’ll play the game

i opened up to mixed reviews, one said
he’s got all the tools, oh, ‘cept talent, charisma
and self-control

so she offered me some soothing advice – live blow by blow
and fly by night and mercy is the one thing you must never show

so i grew an arrogant outer crust
for the belittling put-downs and all that stuff but it’s hard having a heart
left in the cold

it’s overkill and sometimes i
feel this heart has been battered enough, it makes me ask what this adventure
has taught me? where has it brought me? and where and when i
get off?

the dream, the promise, the goal, the vow have just become a blood-sport now, an obsessive form of revenge,
compulsive and mean

for what it’s worth revenge is sweet, to wrap it up all
clean and neat so what is it that lingers and smells so obscene?

i need to somehow just bury the past
and wash myself in the rain but she make me think
she’s within my grasp, she tortures me, she tortures me 

and now when i look inside myself
i feel hell in every bone, i
need someone to save me, my cover is blown and baby i’m
frightened and i’m alone

here, in this mourning world is the story of a cold-blooded
girl, i die more each moment we’re apart, why was i stabbed in the heart?

she won’t forgive me she won’t ever let me heal, i want for her to feel the way she makes me feel, she won’t
forgive she knows i love her still so i pray, pray, pray for a miracle to appear

now in my darkest hour i feel the
pain of living without her, here i am wanting only
love and peace but i find myself buried in the belly
of the beast, i don’t want to live in the darkest
part of my soul 

but the worm won’t turn, i can’t
let it go, the message couldn’t be more clear, the disillusionment stops here, i know she’ll never let me near until i
kill that self-loathing queer

one of these days i’m gonna fuck them all, line them up against the wall and blow
away with a vengeance this sickening disease 

seems like i’m drunk now all the
time, the punishment, it fits the crime, the moral is – what shows is what she
sees

it’s knowing that i had my chance
and drew the ace of spades, she told me that it made no sense, why can’t i explain?

‘cuz it’s time to put on another
show, it’s time to let some anger flow ‘cuz, man, you
ain’t no poet anyway 

but someday i’ll write another
verse ‘cuz i know there’s a
different person buried in this body i have worn
since the day i was born 

and i may have loved and lost, to
let her go it hurt a lot to feel like it had all been thrown away

but maybe that’s the price you pay for living in the u.s.a. where lovely farrah fawcett-majors smile made it worthwhile

jack nicholson was at his best in
one flew over the cuckoo’s nest – the important thing is i
tried, dammit, i tried

but i nearly died of malnutrition
along the way and now i don’t know fact from fiction,
sane from insane

lost from point of destination, friend from foe, fires of
hell or god’s creation, tell me, i need to know

what more within imagination a single soul can owe, the
villain wants the execution stopped, the crowd says no

dying days

it truly is a pleasure to
be here tonight, a moment i shall treasure for the
rest of my life, a moment i shall cherish from the
bottom my heart, a moment to which i shall always try
to hold on

so here i am felling tired and worn,
there’s a road i keep traveling but i still don’t know where i’m
going and it feels like i’ve reached the end but i know i’ve just barely
started 

and the signs that i once followed have now disappeared but the dark pounding
of a dreamer’s heart that sharp fangs have bitten won’t rest until this tragic
tale gets rewritten

so i
packed up buy bags and my long abandoned ego, packed up the rags and moved on, i cashed in my lies, completed the circle, severed all
previous ties and moved on and on and on

i came out of my shell, i fought like hell with brave new steps and people can tell
that i’m not the same loner crying in pools of self pity

it took all my guts and all
my bluffs but i knew what to do when things drove me
too nuts – find comfort in ways that could only be described as not pretty

well i
followed all the rules and obeyed most of the laws, i
found myself a meaning, i found myself a cause

i polished up my image and stole myself
some lines, i threw away my morals, i threw away my mind and along the way i
learned to ignore all the dangers signs and then it became a simple matter of
time

it truly is a pleasure to
be here tonight, a moment i shall treasure for the
rest of my life, i moment i
have always feared from the bottom of my heart and now it is clear that
something’s crept in from the dark

everybody’s got their long
awaited fantasy with their guns all loaded, cock and ready to fire but somehow
the trigger went off one day and they say it was pulled by me

then spiraled into this
catastrophe in the words of the world’s worst liar but i
swear it was just an accident, my hands were sweaty and my finger slipped,
there is no way i can face this reality

i simply cannot believe it’s me
standing her for the world to see to claim responsibility for this unforgivable
crime, 

all i
want is a chance to prove that i’m not so much at
fault but it probably looks like i’m attempting to
climb over every side of the wall 

‘cuz
i’m trapped in the middle of a downhill slide, it
might look like fun but i’m petrified, you can only
soar so fast before you totally lose control, part of me says if you go one
step further you’ll be killed 

but turning back time
would be like changing your mind when you’ve already swallowed the pill, this
trap is where i’ll be forced to live until my dying
day and i’m now convinced that there is simply no
escape

well i
don’t know where i am and it keeps getting harder and
harder to tell but i’m sure by now that i’m at least half way to hell

there are bells that ring
out loud in a way that they’ve never rang before but i’m
told to pretend that they can’t be heard and to just keep surging forward

i now have gone from incredibly crazy
to severely insane, i no longer want to play but i’m the last one left in the game, i
feel like such a degraded fool standing naked here in the rain 

but i’m
all alone there is no one else to blame, my life has hit a bottomless pit, my
friends all tell me that i look like shit but i’ve come so far, become so marred but i
never though i’d get hit
this hard

all i
know is that i will never forget the horror pf it all
and if i can’t walk off this stage right now, i’ll crawl but before i go i want you to know how much i
love you all, it’s nice to know you’ll be near me when i
fall